Saturday, April 30, 2011

3 more days

3 more days, I think my life might change, slightly or tremendously .


3 more days, I will know what I need exactly in my life.


3 more days, I might have all new thinking, or remain the same decision like what I've made few months ago.


3 more days, I will know that I need to implement the plan that I've made few months ago or just forget about it.


3 more days, I have to face these all shits myself, alone.


3 more days ,I wont be so tension condition like now anymore, I guess.


3 more days, I might be more stress than ever before, I hope not.


3 more days, The day seems like so unpredictable, make me feel insecure till max.


3 more days, I would have a very deep breath before I get to know the end result.


3 more days, I might give myself a big hug or I'm going to hate myself for at least 1 year.


3 more days, I need to decide how my future going to be.


3 more days, I believe I still cant let go.


3 more days, I would go somewhere that can make myself relax.


3 more days, I might just can hide myself in the pillow and start to regret.


3 more days, It is so far to me, it seems like 3 more years.


3 more days, I hope I can reward myself a bowl of SNOWFLAKES, or CHESSY WEDGES.


3 more days,  3 more days , 3 more days..


No matter how the end result is going to be, 


I'll never give up, Never, and Never.


Just because I don't feel like wanna give up, or quit.


Just because I gotta be stronger than before.


So..


Let's see what would happen after 3 days...











Wednesday, April 13, 2011

迷惘

我是做错了吗?


我知道自己在做着什么吗?


我到底怎么了?


我变了吗?


我怎么连看我自己都有陌生的感觉?


我的想法,看法,都变了


好事?坏事?


没人能定义那是好还是坏,是看不同人的看法。


一位朋友说我对事情看得很开了,


是真地看得开还是假的?


我自己也不知道。


但直少现在我的观念是如此,虽然变化有点大


我知道我自己在做什么,我是如此的坚信着。。


你可以不认同,但我不会强逼你去接受,


但也希望不要过分干涉,可以支持,或一起讨论最好。


我很想珍惜每一天,很想很想。。


需要更多动力,但还在寻找中。


我过分高估我自己了,


以为能跨过,原来还在原地踏步。


没关系,再给自己多些时间,


但,我很恨自己为什么那么久了还没跨过去。。


我觉得还没跨过去的每一分钟每一秒,那生活都是不够完整的,浪费我的时间。


但我又不能做些什么,


没办法,


人生就是按呢款的了,充满无奈


我只好加把劲了,


加油加油!


还有,


对不起。